I’m having difficulty remembering what day it is. Days tend to all blur together – one bleeding into the next. We actually still have a notebook we keep logging our son’s diaper changes, feedings, naps, etc. Otherwise we won’t remember. Parenthood definitely takes away some of your brain power.
So it’s already Wednesday. Wow.
I am happy to report I did good on my workout goal for last week. I did every workout except for Sunday’s yoga DVD. It’s probably the one I need to most, but the one I feel least guilty about skipping. Odd, right? But there were days I had to force myself to do my 15 minute exercise – and I did it. So yay! Small victory dance.
My goal this week is 30 minutes. Yesterday that didn’t happen. Yesterday was chaotic. My sitter didn’t show up and I had an early morning meeting with my boss – so my husband had to stay with the baby. And from then on, craziness ensued. You know how when your day starts off crazy, it just stays crazy. Unexpected trip to the pediatricians office, ridiculously long lines at the grocery store for 11am on a Tuesday, all that happened. So no, I didn’t workout then. But I did my 30 minutes on Monday and today, so I’m just picking up where I left off. No guilt. Things happen. No quitting – that’s the more important thing!
On a totally unrelated note, while I’m happy I’ve started this exercise regime, I still can’t help looking towards next year for me to finally have some happiness. I don’t know why – I’ve never been a New Year’s person. January 1 is just the same as December 31st in my book. But for some reason I feel like all the hurt and stress I have buried deep down in me will disappear with the changing of the year. It doesn’t work that way, I know. I just don’t have the time or the means to release it, and it will stay with me until I do. That’s a scary thought. But I just have to keep powering on. When the feelings overcome me, I let them. I don’t judge myself. You can’t wish away sadness anymore than you can wish for more money. So I just feel it. And hope that one day I won’t be so sad anymore.
But that’s my update. Nothing overwhelming. Just thought I’d throw this out there.