I have a list of to-do’s. Many of them are things I need to get done in order to make my life less chaotic. And let’s face it – life can be chaotic. Things like clean the high chair before the next meal, prepare snacks for the babysitter to feed the child before she gets there, make sure the laundry is done.
Some of them are things that would be nice to get done to make life more pleasant. Those unfortunately usually fall to the bottom of the list and the chaos-inducing ones. Things like fold and put away the laundry, prepare snacks for the week ahead of time, and prepare healthy snacks for myself ahead of time.
And then there’s the wish to-do list. This one is never really written down, but remains in my head as dreams of things I want to-do. This includes things like go to an extra exercise class (besides the 2 a week I normally go to), bake just to bake, write a blog post, read a book, etc.
These I can say really never get done. (The exception is today’s blog post writing). But I want to do these things, so I need to make them happen.
Sometimes life is funny. We spend our days doing things we really don’t want to do, but need to do, while dreaming about what we want to do. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if it was the other way around? Unless you are fortunate enough to have a full time housekeeper, chef, nanny, dog sitter, etc. – this probably isn’t possible. And even then, I’m sure you are stuck doing things you don’t want to because you have to. And yes, it’s part of life – doing things you don’t want to. And that’s fine. No big deal.
But then there’s finding the time for things you want to do. That’s where the difficult part comes in.
So, here I am, finding time. Instead of zoning out in front of the tv after a busy day of work and life, I’m writing. Because I want to and this is the time I have to do it.
It shouldn’t be so hard to find motivation to do things you want to do. But sometimes, it is. And that’s a reality. There’s all these slogans that say if you really want it, you’ll find a way; and if you don’t, then you’ll find an excuse. While I do believe there is some truth to this – there is also the truth of being run down, exhausted and used up by the end of the day.
So, no more feeling guilty for not working after the little one goes to sleep and taking time to do something for me.
No more feeling guilty that I haven’t yet cleaned the high chair in preparation for tomorrows breakfast. Breakfast is 12 hours away. I can take some time to write.
No more feeling guilty – the guilt can kill the motivation. So here I am, guiltless, spending a little me time before diving back into life.
Hopefully I can keep up the no guilt train!