I have to say, anxiety and google do not mix.
I’ve always had a bit of anxiety. When I was a kid, it was more of a social anxiety. As I’ve aged, I’ve learned techniques to deal with social anxiety. But as I learn to deal with one type of anxiety, another one rears it’s ugly head. After social anxiety came choosing a career path anxiety, after that came living on my own anxiety, etc. etc. so and so on.
Lately, as I’m settled in my job and my personal life, a new anxiety has popped up. Anxiety of strange medical conditions.
Let me preface this by saying I am the person who has weird things happen to them – whether personally or medically.
Just as an example, I have a rare food allergy – it’s a dietary nickel allergy. Yes, I am very allergic to the metal nickel and can not wear jewelry, watches, etc with nickel in it. And that has turned into a food allergy. Nickel is a natural compound found in the soil, and so it is absorbed by food that grows in the soil. Those foods with a naturally high nickel content cause me to have an allergic reaction. It’s crazy – it’s rare – and I have it.
So when you have a kid, your anxiety naturally raises for the health and wellbeing of your child. Add that on to an already anxiety-prone personality, and things can get a little out of control.
I’ve been spending a ton of time googling things that I’m worried about with my son. I won’t go into specifics, because it’s just a worry of mine. No medical professional has said anything about it – and when I talk to others they don’t agree with me. So most likely (and hopefully) it’s just my anxious mind.
The other day, I was “multi-tasking” as many people do. I was cooking some food for my son for the week – which is a lot of boiling frozen veggies – while googling away on the topic of my concern. While in the throws of my vicious google circle – a plastic slotted spoon had fallen into the flame on my gas stove. And I was so caught up in my obsession that I didn’t notice until most of the spoon had melted away on the stove, the pot, the pot lid, etc.
I had a mini-breakdown as I was taking all the melted plastic covered kitchen supplies outside to get the fumes/smell out of my home. I called my husband and lost it. Not my finest moment at all.
So since then I’ve sworn off google for this topic. Because really – is google going to help me solve this problem (if it is one)? Is google going to prevent this from being a problem (if it is?) No. Is google going to make me miss out on some precious moments with my son? Is google going to make my life more chaotic than it needs to be? Yes.
So from now on, Google is off limits for topics that can send me into a worry-spiral. It is to be used for research for work, shopping, email and fun items only!